Simplifying an emotion

that holds thousand of characters,

as the stars glows far in the black sky,

stumble faith that wraps around my legs,

making it difficult to see on such dim light,

Never the less i provoke insecurities

on master minds,

Beauty is against 

loyalty for which i stand,

I have been crucified million

years ago,

when i was queen of the empire,

and so rules was the catch of all kinds of law

that i man had created,

Never was love the cause of death,

Never was inspiration of a true woman beauty

that enlighten the room as is expressed in the room,

for what man justified it is a distraction,

to continue to dominate this world,

and so this queen was weak,

to emotions,

to elections

as she picked bodies that has the potential.

not by the potential of know someone in high society,

for honesty that she sense,

she chose always an honest man,

that will hold down his ground,

that will please her for what

her needs are,

In selfish thoughts a poor man

dies every day,

is that ambition of dealing for such addiction,

of craving, for nothing but an empty

harmful faith that filled him enough

to satisfied such urges,

Urges are like sponges that absorb all kind

of negativity, feeding the heart of empty words

that settles for nothing that is worth 

dying for,

when nothing you have

just the thoughts,

just the intentions,

is almost like is good enough

reason why to jump right on it,

Daily we choose,

Daily we accept,

Daily we stress,

things that don't matter,

more is too much,

less is not enough,

so under such desperation's

we find a deadly cure that

ease,

that pace,

that accepts every fault there is

that wont admit,

adn so in the sound of the violin,

she was born,

the sound of violin she die,

her words was stronger then

what a man can handle.... 

Bad habit of human race...

We have days,

We have hours,

We have minute,

still yet have not admire you,

Bad habit of human race 

that  won't prioritize to

First, before anything goes,

to nothing to learn,

understand that our fast

pace urges to take and get

satisfied our needs of empty love,

We want love.

but we misunderstand such meaning,

We want trust,

but we jump to the first assumption,

but we rush to get what called the attention,

I can sit all night next to you and just

gently touch you with my finger tips

appreciate the beauty of the person you are,

your ways simply beautiful and scare me,

play with fire every day as i release demons

to take over of what is real,

what can be real,

instead i hide behind the fire....

Broken child free to express...

Bitter taste to reality check,

wonderful people dissapear,

like water evaporates,

i enjoy every moment i spent with 

everyday strangers,

i learn and so i am facinated

to know about their stories,

is luck,

is coencidence,

is emotions never felt,

is lesson learned,

is broken heart,

is dissapointment,

is control over life,

over emotions deprived

from decades aways,

where lifestyle was to be judge

by assumptions,

by decicions,

never i felt so alive,

such a woman,

such a human,

as i am now been me,

as a person,

as mother,

as friend,

as a sister,

as a aunt,

as a employee,

i have been many things

except free to do what i pleased,

and so i smiled as soon i was caged free,

as i belong in a neutral zone,

where there is freedom of speech,

with out calculations,

freedom of thinking,

with out limitations,

freedom of doing,

with out giving any explanations,

as we know every animal

belongs where they meant to belong,

for i was misunderstood all my life,

misplacing me,

where anger trigger to released demons,

cowardly hidding emotions, 

to face life,

to deal with life,

and so broken child

is free to express what true feeling

are....

Troubled child with seal lips

Is a simple way of expressing myself,

for many things, there is one little thing

that comes along with this heavy package,

in small print, with a fine type,

with a light ink,

that is impress with a faded words,

Troubled child,

with seal lips,

slowing enclosed in spirit and mind,

is all in the faith, is all in what would've been,

and so opportunity come along and she

waived on such because her mind is not

right, 

She feel for human kind,

warm heart and wish to heal

all those troubled hearts,

her beauty is a the source of fondle,

that is continuously misunderstood,

for lust and all she ask is love,

She is fumble, stumble against her words,

her mind goes as fast as the clock,

it just keeps going and doesn't stop,

judgement is placed with hardship

that is hard to deal with, for is the reason

why confidence lack,

For many directions there is a way to escape,

escaping is for coward for all they do is to hide such pain,

is the way of coping with life while the world judge such kind,

but she doesn't mind,

hard words strive her to be stronger,

to maybe get to know herself better,

to find what is the medium to all this madness,

to find truce within her,

A sensitive heart, 

 sensitive mind,

Sensitive way of moving forward

without hurting others along the way,

kind hearted person,

that only wants simply to be respected,

loved and be accepted!.....

The beat goes

Fast,

speed,

slow song,

the beat goes,

Pick,

trick,

treats

for free,

the beat goes,

Heartless

pounds,

lightning stroke,

never seen land,

configuring signal

that according to

the receiver,

was misplaced,

with the other

 misunderstood

messages,

left on the air and 

the beat goes,

Awaking truth,

after taste sweet,

never i had experience,

someone bitter with

manners of a thief,

and the beat goes,

In many ways i behave,

at the sound of commands,

your wishes is written

in a formal letter,

with demanding language,

that don't quite register,

in this persona,

and the beat goes,

Honesty is held

lightly,

with no confidence

that it can be deliver

in a proper way

for its purpose

is to gain trust,

and the beat goes,

One of a kind,

one of its type,

never been clone, 

for is the very original

and the only,

she don't change,

she adjust,

she is not fake,

she is very much real,

the question is what part 

of her you did not get??!

Fighting a war of believe it is love....

Little things,

are big things that need to be discuss,

still yet is on the air,

so un-important,

so insignificant,

Words for words i swear i speak the truth,

i am a loner that fear the worse,

more to loose then gain,

i fight a battle of negativity,

that hunts me like i deserve it,

understand i am sensible to crying heart,

for is used against me,

Simple lyrics that tell my story,

understand is pain that i lived all my life,

i am not perfect nor a saint,

i assure you i pray to god to release me from any pain,

I am beautiful, 

and so i was curse to be so,

please dont judge me for such,

it is simple my way,

love, kindness, respect

i seek,

I want to be loved,

i want anything that will make us grow,

i want happiness for that feed our soul,

it is honest my love for you,

when you question it,

it triggers anger that bounce against wall

making me bitter to what i thought it was love,

I met you,

and i thought is a challege,

difficult personality that needs love,

and so my heart pounds,

and still be question,

If you dont understand that i am love,

that want love,

that will give love,

that needs love,

i am as weak as you,

i am as in need as you,

dont judge me,

i am just thirsty for true love... 

In Stubborn days....

Arrogant is his ways,

slowly he pace,

with little steps,

so far he goes,

Confident is his ways,

status tone,

that identify such faults,

love,

far long,

and so in effect,

 only when he is drunk,

Careful is his ways,

as when he slip,

he recollect before the storm,

fearless moves,

that only protect his ego,

Wise man is his way,
as he preaches
hurtful stories that made him a man,

But nothing the less,
as i learned such a brief lesson,
to understand my position,
my needs,
my grounds,
my faults,
that makes me a better woman within me,

i reflect on such mistakes,
i will rephrase to clarify whatever you misunderstand,
i answer truly,
that's the only way i be,

but something that i understand clearly,
we are not for each other stand,
for it was some sort of bang,
sadly went dead fast,
for long fasting days
felt like stubborn years
that i refuse to adjust,
for it was difficult to
translate such language,
that offend me every time,

I'll replace,
I'll rephrase,
I'll remade,
but my dear friend
i would not beg!.....

He didn't understand many things to understand.

He suffers,

i can tell by the way he looks at me,

He is collapsing,

i can tell by the way he dress him self,

He is relapsing,

i can tell by the way he speak to me,

nothing more i wish then to take all that pain,

in fault or not, 

decision is made,

for consequence of a daily drill,

he didn't understand many things to understand,

for i seek for escape,

while he created a cave,

it was a nest of love,

till i wanted to fly away to search for food,

he didn't understand many things to understand,

he was everything there was to offer,

for daylight stream,

was the answer,

so vague,

i fed over his words,

nothing Wise matter but his ways,

what about mines?

i was left with bare feet,

on hot grounds that i couldn't bare,

it was love at one point,

it was lust for a starter,

till it got darker in the room

and got caught up on making love,

and so i learned that i needed to be love,

with a gentle touch,

with a gentle kiss,

with a gentle whisper in my ear 

to tell me how much i am worth,

i learn value,

i learn what is my place,

i learn that someone can love me,

for i was convince,

he meant well on teaching me a lesson,

he thought that caging this strong stand bird,

will protected from been taking away,

for this bird, knew his owner,

for this bird needs to spread her wings,

all she knew was to fly,

till this soft hands catch her,

and trainer the way he knows best,

little did he knows that 

this bird needed soft hand

to be guided

 not controlled,

and just when the moon came out,

this bird let free,

out of her cage,

found her way to her very first nest,

where freedom is air,

and love is free.....

Black Widow

Trouble some,

bother some,

slightly she slide

towards an invention

called venal,

they say she is a feen,

because every man that she tease,

is an arrogant self love,

that needs to be pleased,

and the woman to be feal,

as this man demand for woman to seel,

They say she is made of steel,

she doesn't make a sound,

as she knows the field,

she is a strong minded woman,

that don't skip step to get ahead,

for she takes her time,
to identify the fine line,

They say her beauty burn eyes,
her confident walk
that manifest in those shallow hearts,
her smile is to seek for,
light up the room
with charisma that is fearful,
simplicity not negotiable,
kindness is miscue,
her skin glow as she walks
across the room,
very well known
for giving the after taste
when you try to take her as a fool,

They say that as poisoners as she is,
can't seem to get enough,
for her kissing is addicting,
and is not reflecting
with reason she usually has,
she knows very well
how to browse and cast,
as she own the room
walking so rude,

They say that her ways,
are not to get use to it,
for her unpredictable moods
that affect the surrounded,
scar many men are left,
true beauty is deceiving,
for the sound of her voice,
is memorable,
Loveing,
Kindness,
loyalty,
respect,
will be giving once
this other mate give her the same....

                                                                                                                        

Eagle Shadow Stay..

Fast thoughts,

rushed lust,

meaningles words,

that is spread within the room,

lost world,

and so i learned,

sad song,

is not love,

is the hunters finder,

the fit right in as writer,

less things,

few links,

and so i abidance,

poor touch,

as my hands are numb,

my heart beat rapidly,

as that is the name of the song,

his seeks is vague,

for his excuse is so lame,

little does he knows

i am the queen of love

that gain just about anyone trust,

she is never pleased

is personal, yes! she is mean,

for there is expectation that he needs to meet,

little steps,

and a gap of space,

distance is safe,

but many crucial thoughts,

is clearly,

you hurt,

pick a theme,

all the words

 of so called love

down the drain,

nothing more,

nothing less,

for i take little steps,

acknowledging few mistakes,

is a sign,

is the verdict,

and is all true,

i stand strong,

as your eagle shadow stay,

shadow is the only things left

for your pathetic reason why she left,

a man of trust,

confidence flunk,

it is you the problem love,

because i am the queen of love,

that gain anyone trust!!!