Closing Chapter....

Is a strange, powerful feeling that takes over
something that means nothing but something
that tickle enough to move things inside of me,

The language of love, attraction i find it such a
distraction to what we come in this life for,
i don't discriminate the word LOVE but the reason
behind it, make us do things that we in our rational
mind won't do, irrational is those decision that we
make everyday when is thought and process,
acknowledge it and still go on ignoring the outcome
of it,

Human yes human indeed we are, but again we chose
to sin and learn the right and wrong, when we think about
for who we did it for? and then ask why? and for what?
realize that the truth been sitting on front of me all this time,
dreamers of the dream release the answers clearly for me to
see,  we make selfish decision everyday for the better and the worse,

Today i learn that i have the answer i have been looking for,
defining, refining, relying on this strong pulse that makes me
stumble, it had shaking me awake making my heart raise,
drain in sweat i had awaking to know that i have to
let you go, for the better, to go on moving forward and not
looking back, you are a reminder of my past that i buried long
time ago, still yet that hunts me because i choose to, that been
said! i don't see you in my future,

This chapter of what IF i will be closing because i shouldn't
from the beginning had open i book that doesn't allow me to
move forward......

Thinking is the way....

Many friends come and go,
Many things we win we lost,
Many saying that affect us all,
Many places that we need to know,
Still yet.... we don't know what way to go,

Experience of a sinner, lets not be
some sort of weird believer,
Is beneath, i know is a teaser,
feel free to be the pleaser,
here where i stand feels perfect to wear sneakers,
rough long path, jumpy road full of rocks it won't last,
is the past that makes the day drag,

Cold feet he screams for everyone to know,
that she is a poor child making the wrong
move turning the wrong way,
Thinking is the way of forgiving and forgetting
it ever exist for the sake of those insecure that live
on the proof of the knowing, just to acknowledge that
something that is flowing, for the need and the wants
that we get stuck and can't proceed indeed is the need
to progress with no regrets......

#251538

I was young, i didn't know better, naive an intention in every part of my body,
i grew old, i grew wise, i grew in pain begging with knees on rice,
i wanted things, i wanted nothing but to be happy,
I knew hope because every letter had what i wanted to hear,
It got me thru for what it was a though lesson,

I am not a little girl anymore, i am scar by pain and mistakes, i am scare of how it progress,
i waited a million years for a friend like you, but loneliness got a toll of me and change all
rules that was made with in me, just remember it change the rules with in me, it just made me
be a better independent woman that fought every war that was put up in front of me like obstacles,

Every song on the radio i listen to, every poem i wrote was written because of an expression,
expression was a feeling felt for every letter that my hand force to write down every thought, every story lived with the moment of the moment, i felt like you knew everything there is to know,
century was to tell our story, wasn't sure if it was a love story, every letter i read was like it was so,
but i got lost in the translation of what would've been, what could've be if so...

A child was born for every min i had sin, sipping on what i thought it was a cure, thought me a lesson long live to learn to teach and to survive how ever i knew, i had written everything thing like it was some sort of guilt like i owe you an explanation, i explain, i delay, i stop in complete, stopped like for a traffic light, got caught up on lost gone distraction that justified why i did, long days, long night i bet you felt, i didn't know what i meant to you but i surely knew you was more then what you thought it was,

In days in nights in years i learned that one day we will meet, i was in denial, i was in disbelieve you are around indeed, i am in good hand, did you know? no of course not, i had not written letters to let you know that i am okay, that i am happy that i am with someone that make those though life fade away like the wind, i know...... once you knew.... is not what you wanted to hear but it is what it is,

Attraction are like a magnets, close enough and they get stock, hard to separate, hard to understand why so, not understanding many things, i learned who you are, is what like a reality shock that took me as a fool, in disbelief what i felt, well... what i thought i felt, you are a synonym of myself still yet we think differently, life thought you a well kept closed lesson, and life thought me one painful full lesson that made me learn to think, say what i will do next........

No Exclamations....

There is things that we don't talk about,
there is things that we avoid to think about,
there is things that we wish we have,
that we wish it didn't happen,

Reality!.... we face everyday with discrimination,
we grow old with insecurities,
we fuss and curse at the unity,
we drink and dance,
is fun, is loud, we regret, we retrace,
we neglect what is our responsibilities and forgive,

Nothing is more is just less,
nothing is enough then our thirst,
nothing is bigger then our waist,

we eat enough, but not full enough,
we cry enough, but with plenty to come,
we love too much but we hate to admit,
we scarify our time to make a difference
in this dam maze,
amaze me with such a great exclamation,
devoted to those that live in this nation,
secluded thoughts, under control,

Last words..... find yourself in this fucking world....

In strangers I see

Interesting faces that say alot 

still yet Don't understand,

Eye contact is intense that speak thousand word, still yet We won't feed the deed, expression is everything in this earth, but that's discipline taking place to correct the necessary so unnecessary to think that's takes over, 

There is nothing else better then to be free of guilt, other struggle on been honest, but if we were do so what we get in return?

Lets believe that theirs is nothing to believe, trust is lost at the same time is fun, we get what we get, and lets not get upset, we translate every day human language, we assume to consume, 

Nothing of a nothing that we care only to mind what wonders is in our mind,

Politeness was a lesson thought when younger, we forget our manners when used and abused this great manners,

We judge to fuss, not just because! We learn from the trend even thou we don't adjust, we hate to love, because their is no choice, we seek to find and what we end up with?..... Nothing! That to think that we know who the stranger is!!!!!

Lets forget their is another day

Lets sip, loud music make me slip,

Lets sip, lets forget that's theirs another day, 

lets sip, lets dance, lets slide, lets fight, , refrase, retrace,

Lets sip, lets sex, lets find out how good it is,

 lets find ourself in the middle of nowhere,

Lets discover what we are what,

Is not what is their to see,

Lets sip, not seek, 

go with the moment of the moment that will take us to bed, 

Lets sip, to discuss real life, real things that we conflict,

Lets sip and forget that's theirs another day,

Life is one, one we live, one we sin, one we die..........

Taking chances

Waking up everyday thinking of all the darkness
the world has to offer,

Silence seeks time to re-think decisions
pounded on yet not made,

Daylight is too bright to follow,
such a struggle to juggle motive to prosecute
those that are shallow,

Who i am to judge those that struggle with such
habit of life,
Finding self within inner self make those want to snuggle,

Weakness is mistaken with a soft hearted person,
reality is that having a weakness is a strength of a great warrior,

Using and abusing the system of all the greatest heart,
makes a burnable and pathetic move like is some sort of
chest game,

The decision is a petition that we oath to rule for,
he strikes i fight, what i want isn't right but makes my night,
Pleasure against reassurance, you rephrase to have some sort insurance,

I am who i am, i loved once with all i had, a strong storm destroyed all
the beautiful things there was, something was left and so i stood back up
and became bitter and very strong to the taste,
that doesn't make me a bad person, but it does make me hard headed person,

Nothing is blue unless i say so, nothing is safe till i brake thru,
rough past is a long journey, the choice is yours if you want to continue
with nothing, taking chances with mild changes that will take you
no where.......

Deception is the lesson

It takes little steps, still yet is not moving forward,
we tent to get crossed line in the transition of a mission
not yet accomplish,
we fear confrontation, not for the winning,
or the loosing, but defeating the un-thinkable,
is that deception that is inapplicable for this feast,

As a child i was thought to fight for what i want,
cost to all cost i get what i want,
is one of those things where you WANT because you NEED!
a vicious cycle that we live in to justify
the unhappiness decision made in life,

We aim to get burned, so then we can say we learned,
in circles we go, fighting for what we didn't want from the
get go, it always feel like walking barefoot in a path of rocks,
it aches but we face what slap on our face, accumulation
of deception i say, but do we really learn?

Sadness was caused by some sort of happiness that faded
like dust in air,
we make bad decision like the end is near,
forgive me not is the trend of the year,
lost fears is gone shift in gears,
but do we really mean those tears?

Fast lane there it goes, lets go with the flow,
trust strangers that may just know,
wise man is blinded by this poor world,
lack of knowledge here WE go, making moves
like we know.....

Fallen at dawn

Impressive his charisma,
nothing he fears in the doing,
for starters he is smooth on that talk,
lets be one today, leaving wise decision on the air,
he is very well know for starling false hope,

Is non sense his ways, but it worked for the poor,
settle some thoughts in, still yet no conclusion,
the solution is very clear, lets move quitely,
light weight step, will get you somewhere,
not far for my concern, but atleast a lap around
to get away with shallow fin,

around goes that thought of the want and needs,
how much he can get away with?
the initiator has fail to comply promises
for the lack of strong proof to prosecute,

he is not wise, but some smart to know what to say,
so far not deep for nothing i pay,
heart to heart has been felt,
truce in his eyes, but defiant in his lips,
hands of steel, destroy anything touched,
skin of silk full of scars so deceiving still yet
so deceptive to weakness at hands,

He fights fear of drowning on a cup full of
mistakes, for the sake of asking for forgiveness,
he lives for every day, for every night,
tomorrow he was just planning to do the same...